Reciting excerpts from his memoir, Of Pain and Prejudice, the Politics of Mental Health. Part of the show Psychiatric Survivors,
a show produced entirely by people who had been in psychiatric institutions.
(00:00:30)Words "Insult or Honesty" appear on screen, then Deacon reads from book. Living with mental illness and the struggle to talk
about it with others.
(00:01:24)Words "A Slow Fade to Black" appear on screen, then Deacon reads from book. Describes suicide attempts, living with depression,
and coming out as gay.
(00:05:35)Still reading from book, describes how his feelings about suicide have changed, because there are many people whom he cares
about. Admittedly still not immune to suicidal thoughts, and feels comfortable turning to hospitalization when he feels urge
to commit suicide.
(00:06:50)Words "Writing Depressed" appear on screen, then Deacon appears writing down. Voiceover from Deacon, reading from his book:
"An experiment while writing depressed." Deacon then speaks to camera about how to write when depressed-- it's a valuable
and therapeutic challenge, as well as interesting to look at different moods and how he writes. How to interact with others,
and teach other how to treat those who are depressed.
(00:10:34)Words "Notes from a Hospital Ward" appear on screen, then Deacon reads from book. How different patients are treated in ward.
(00:11:27)Words "The Tyranny of Optimism" appear on screen, then Deacon reads from book. Describes how healthcare providers are meant
to appear optimistic that the patient will get better, optimism cannot necessarily help a patient outside the doctor's office.
Poor conditions in group homes, hospitals, and other facilities, even if conditions have apparently improved over the decades.
(00:15:59)Words "Double Jeopardy" appear on screen, then Deacon reads from book. Talking about gay and being mentally ill, living with
patients who are homophobic.
(00:20:13)Words "Toward Our Own Culture" appear on screen, then Deacon reads from book. Explains his desire to be open about his hospitalization
and illness, as a form of self-advocacy and empowerment.
(00:25:17)Words "Season's Greetings" appear on screen, then Deacon reads from book. Discusses the struggle to celebrate Christmas: seasonal-affective
disorder, financial pressures, difficulties with relationships. Encourages empathy.
(00:27:32)Reading ends. Credits roll. Executive Producer: Paul Dorfner, Producer/Director: Irene Rea, Camera: Susan Jewett, Contact